| Tuesday, December 21st, 2004 |
| 10:41 am |
As it slithers....
This week seems like it's going to be very unproductive. So I have to find out what I am going to do to out do my weekend events. Lets see start a cloning facility and start my army of hot girls to pursue my dream of taking over 3rd world countries! Maybe I'll just continue to defile myself with more alcohol and continue to be a belligerent drunk with maniacal tendencies! Damn it's going to be a long week! Other than that I am the new training supervisor. Going to have another pot luck at work. I'm going to bring Rum and Coke tee-hee! That's probably why I'm not a manager yet...I'm too much of a damn miscreant. They haven't seen anything yet!!!! Looks like the week is going to be longer than I thought! Current Mood:  drainedCurrent Music: Ministry - Burning Inside |
| Wednesday, November 24th, 2004 |
| 10:10 am |
I want the world to end in the glory of my spit. Society does not want a hero unless he is endorsing Nikes or Wheaties cereal. Start giving thanks to your television for teaching your children the morals and ethics you never had time to teach them. Seek financial security in the career you have been studying for 6 years after realizing all you really needed, was to purchase a gun! Guns, machines, and make-up, the essentials after marshal law is declared. As you look down that desert waste land overlooking the field of Starbucks Coffee Shops, upon a bright sunny radiated day, you can thank god and George Bush Jr. for the malignant tumors in your brain. Did anyone notice that the same states that voted for Bush are also states that were on the side of the confederacy in the civil war?!! Current Mood:  indescribableCurrent Music: Rammstein - Weißes Fleisch |
| Thursday, November 18th, 2004 |
| 10:59 am |
Bass playing and eyeliner!
Here is a pic a managed to get from the 4th of July show.  Current Mood:  curiousCurrent Music: Faith No More - Digging a Grave |
| Thursday, November 4th, 2004 |
| 10:31 am |
Save fetuses to raise dead soldiers!
I have decided that I am going to either resurrect or clone Adolf Hitler to take over our presidency. I mean both (Hitler and Bush) liars, both war mongers, both fascist but at least Hitler unlike Bush is not illiterate and would be a competent president. Normally I would congratulate a winner but what good is it when someone can alter the results. I was not surprised at all at Bush's victory! The U.S. is "We the people", "Land of the free" right? One can only hope that his scum bag ways don't change the way a president can only serve 2 terms, which I would not be surprised if it would change. Fucking right winged christian republicans! Against abortion because its a life deserves to live? Save fetuses to raise dead soldiers! I think George Carlin should run for president. -Dead fucking pist-off machine Current Mood:  infuriatedCurrent Music: Skinny Puppy - Fascist Jock Itch |
| Thursday, October 28th, 2004 |
| 10:43 am |
Pretty bullets and sluty guns!
Went a to a gun shop yesterday on my way home from work. I got a booklet to get my Handgun Safety Certificate. I decided on getting a pistol first. A sub compact 45 with a 3.27" barrel holding 10 rounds. Ironically enough it is a Taurus PT 11 Millennium Series. My next one will be a DPMS Panther which comes in a 9mm. or a 45 semi-automatic and are in the choices of 5, 10, 20 and 30 round magazine. I need to check what will be legal to have in California which has the worst gun laws. People think that gun laws will cut down on crime. Don't people realize that a criminal is not going to get their guns legally. It's so ass back wards take the guns from the people that need to defend themselves. Current Mood:  amusedCurrent Music: Ministry- Just one fix |
| Tuesday, October 26th, 2004 |
| 3:38 pm |
I am the serpent in the apple tree whispering your name. Swallow my fruit!
Today is not your day, but as your loss goes on it must be my day! I spoke to my superiors about forgetting my bonus I was told then I'll be getting it in cash sometime this week. So for those of you who don't know I will be having a party at my house on sunday Halloween. I will have 2 kegs! E-mail me if you would like to attend. Got in contact with an old friend through e-mail he went through some shit and came out smelling like a rose. It's good to hear from these friends that seem like you have know ages ago they seem, as if you met them in an ancient lifetime. I might go check out the Alice Cooper concert. Years as a fan and haven't checked them out. I should before Mr. cooper croaks. Also learned today I loaned my buddy Kacy $50 bucks on one of my drunken stoopers. Fuck I'm glad he reminded me lol!! Current Mood:  mischievousCurrent Music: Morbid Angel - God of Emptiness |
| Friday, October 22nd, 2004 |
| 10:21 am |
Some of us know there is no real escape, but determination will lead us to drill even reality.
A break at work how bizare. Today the ungreatful reaction of people just doesn't sieze to amaze me. I can't believe how people in the work envoirment, seem to be all pissy because they have to throw out the trash. I mean shit you get paid well, commision and bonuses in cash. Damn it's fucked up I have to throw out the trash. Frankly sometimes I feel I don't get paid enough to babysit these fucking children! On a lighter note I decided to make an investment in a few guns. I'm gonna start attending shooting ranges as an outlet. I'm thinking of buying a Compact 45mm. Glock, 12gauge pumpaction shotgun, and a rifle with a scope. One my co-workers who was in the marines advised me to get an SKS and add a scope to it. Also a 9mm. to avoid the kick from a 45mm. which seems to be more ideal for my size. (I'm very skinny) I no longer play bass for Voodoo Dawn, sometimes even though your on the same side the difference in tactics bleed into the inevitable. So from here on I will just double my efforts on my solo project DEADMACHINE. Which I should have done that from the beggining until it was complete. I've been lagging on buying a car. All this musical equiptment buying is getting hectic. Oh well everything has its purpose eventhough some are not that wise. --Dead M. Current Mood:  apatheticCurrent Music: Sisters of Mercy - Dominion |
| Wednesday, October 13th, 2004 |
| 4:15 pm |
Rise of the Serpent
Well being I am usually running on borrowed time, I'll make it short and sweet. Been working my fucking ass off now that I've reach managment status, which is really not much until you start reaching a position where you attend the corporate meetings, which I am not there yet. Music Deadmachine is very close to being finished but like always it seems so far away. I have come up with new material which is a bit harder in sound than the EP I am planning to release, yet haven't. Priss xXx is going to move in the house since Steve is moving out. Now members playing in Voodoo Dawn are in the house. I have purchased an X-box and Game Cube, the rest has been going on musical gear. I have been staying in the house but I have had enough I am going out godamn it! I will be hitting SB for Wicked Garden (goth night) on friday and Bar Sinister in Hollywood saturday. Current Music: KMFDM-Juke Joint Jezebel |
| Tuesday, August 3rd, 2004 |
| 6:05 am |
It lives!
Funny how the past comes to life to haunt you at any given moment. In my extended life time, I've come back to my past but I never had it look for me. Sometimes your unruly habits come to play and you may not know exactly why it is you do them... you just know you have to. There are many things in my past that I would change but what chain of events would change? Would the results alter what it is today. Reasons for having someone in such high esteem may be different than what anyone else can comprehend. The saying that "Only the one that hurt you can heal you!" may take its case or rear its ugly face. I can't explain my reasons in a manner that everyone can understand. I can just put them in the manner that I understand. Its one of the few things I do that make me feel human. I wish I had a better explanation but for now this sorry reason is the only one I have for anyone or everyone! |
| Tuesday, July 13th, 2004 |
| 9:25 am |
Stop beating around the Bush Jr.
I am a person who does not believe the system is for the people. A few days ago I had a customer at my hellish job who inspired me to vote. He asked me if I've seen Micheal Moore's Fahrenheit 9/11. I said "No I haven't, how is it?" he said "It's good but I wish he would have gone further" I said "How much further do you want him to take it?" he said "Oh he could have gone much further" at this point I went on a rant on how much of an illiterate, idiotic and hate monger of a president we have. He asked "Well your gonna vote him out right?!" I said "What for he's just gonna rig the election again!" he said "Well you have to vote to leave the paper trail in the event that their is a recount. We went further on this subject but I don't want to bore you. The inspiring words he said was "I'm a republican and I hate democrats, I think they're hypocrites, but I'll vote democrat to get rid of this damn illiterate asshole!" I was in shock. For a republican to put his pride on the side and stand up for america was very inspiring. Current Mood:  energeticCurrent Music: Deadmachine - Revelations: Stigmata of your shame |
| Friday, April 9th, 2004 |
| 5:17 am |
Wag the dog!
Today I was late an hour once again. I hate this whole day lights savings bullshit! I mean really who gives a shit? Why do we have to forward our clocks an our if we're just gonna have to put it back! Well this has fucked up my sleeping habits. Stupid things people say while ordering food or just bullshit requests in other words this is me venting! "I'd like a double cheese burger with extra cheese make that two double cheese burger with extra cheese, large fry's, and a diet coke!" (Why in the fuck would you eat large portions of fattening foods and believe that a diet drink is gonna catharticly keep your ass from expanding? I highly doubt people like the taste of sugarless water down coke.) "I want extra sauce but not too much!" (You either want extra or you don't! Why not ask for it on the side so that you can add your desired portion?! Oops! I forget that would be logical and might make sense.) "I'd like a Quesadilla with cheese!" (Definition: que·sa·dil·la (kesa-deye) n. A flour tortilla folded in half around cheese, then fried or toasted. [American Spanish, from Spanish, diminutive of quesada, type of cheesecake, from queso, cheese, from Old Spanish, from Latin cseus.]--------"I don't know about you folks but I've never had a quesadilla without cheese it defeats the purpose. It's like asking for a banana split without the banana! Order a fucking sunday you yo-yo!) -While on drive thru "Can I have a refill?!" (Fuck off asshole!) -As I hand them their drink and they are holding an empty starbucks cup. "Hey man can you throw this away for me!" (Clean your fucking car at home dickhead!) -At 11:30 p.m. "Hey are you guys serving breakfast?" (Well lets see...breakfast would mean morning and its night time so....guess what that means?!) Current Mood: annoyedCurrent Music: Marilyn Manson- Suck for your solution |
| Monday, April 5th, 2004 |
| 8:15 am |
I never wanted it to ever spoil, but flies will lay their eggs!
I've been catching up with sleep and didn't get a chance to go watch Hellboy. I've been very fuckin bored and more importantly very unmotivated for anything. I decided that my next payday I'm gonna get my contacts I'm sick and tired of wearing glasses. I've been watching George Carlin damn that fucker is funny as hell. I pop in the video tape and the first thing out of his mouth is "Have you ever noticed that the people that are against abortion are people you wouldn't want to fuck anyway!" On another note I'm going to take some time to express just how stupid people are. Now I know it's my fault for having a loser job (at least I'm not much of a loser to not have one). How stupid and self delusioned do you have to be to think that you deserve to be treated as royalty at a fucking drive thru restaurant? Now I understand if your wearing an Armani three piece suit at a fancy restaurant were your lobster special just cost you $58.93 then you can say you are fucken distinguished, but your wearing shorts, stupid ass sandals with no socks, a T-shirt that says shit happeneds. You dont deserve respect at a rat infested shit hole on the wall grill. Me: Sorry we're closed! Customer: What do you mean closed?! (this is a stupid answer to my first statement) Me: You know not open. Customer: I thought you guys were open 24 hrs. (obviously not If I just said we're closed) Me: No that would be corporate not privately owned. Customer: Well thats really stupid. Me: Not my decision! Customer: Well you should tell your boss that its really stupid! Me: You mean tell my boss that we should stay open longer to accommodate all the pricks that think we'll give them better service if they verbally abuse us?! Customer: Whats your name? Me: _______! Customer: I'm gonna make a complaint about you! Me: While your add it you should tell him yourself how stupid it is to close at 2 am. At this point the customer drives off while I'm smiling and waving arrogantly! Current Mood: amusedCurrent Music: Marilyn Manson- Tournaquet |
| Saturday, March 6th, 2004 |
| 6:01 am |
Notes of a dirty old man 2.1
I've slept through my friday night oh well. I finished working with lots of music today I think I might have the album done in about 2 months for my project DEADMACHINE. The new song is called "Loops of Paranoia: The TV commands you to kill" I really dig the stuff I'm doing I just wish I would just do all of it in one shot but my patience wears thin. Well I better get on my way to becoming a rockstar. This is all I have to say! Dead M Current Mood:  artisticCurrent Music: Nitzer Ebb - Join in the chant |
| Wednesday, February 25th, 2004 |
| 3:30 am |
I'd kill myself to make everybody pay!
I haven't been online for a while and I haven't written on this for an even longer time. Just got back from work drinking my Rum and Coke. I found out I'm an asshole by default. I don't mean to be an asshole, I just run into so many stupid people that I can't help but abuse them! I saw Saving Private Ryan for the 5th time. Great fucking movie. I think today I'm in the mood to laugh I'm gonna watch The Cable guy. I swear the chat rooms get stupider and stupider! Dead M Current Mood: artisticCurrent Music: Marilyn Manson- King Kill |
| Saturday, January 31st, 2004 |
| 7:38 am |
I went to god just to see and I was looking at me
Yesterday I went to the Rocky Horror Picture Show I had so much fun. My friends where putting it together and since they went to my club a few times I thought I'd return the favor and show my support. I ran into some people one I didnt care for but the rest it was ok its good that they are doing well despite my side of it. The next chain of events should prove to be very interesting! This is all I have to say! Dead M Current Mood:  ecstaticCurrent Music: KMFDM - A drug against war |
| Tuesday, January 27th, 2004 |
| 9:13 am |
a glimps through the fabric of reality
I found myself deteriorating in a sea of your obsession. You dreamed of me last night, I know. I died only to witness your death one million times a day. You'd never imagine that my pain was far worse than yours. I held on to the pain as far as it would take me and it rendered me to kneel. Now that this pain is gone in a masochistic manner I miss it, for it's lesson and its mockery toward me. You didn't think I would still live, walk, and speak. But I do... sorry to disappoint you, but the pleasure was all mine! I may be a bit maimed but the stars in your eyes have been stolen and with those same empty eyes you still watch me. Dead M Current Mood:  dirtyCurrent Music: Apoptygma Berzerk - Love is Forever |
| Friday, January 23rd, 2004 |
| 3:00 am |
It's like wipping your ass with silk I love it!!
Today I hung out with my old friend Kacy we met some bizzar people (as always) there was an English drunk man who didnt understand that the security guard was kicking him out I told Dice (the security guard) "Maybe you need to say 'You must leave the bloody pub!'" in order for him to understand. We started laughing. Current Mood: amusedCurrent Music: Switchblade Symphoney - Witches |
| Tuesday, January 20th, 2004 |
| 5:19 am |
In a long enough time line the survival rate for everything drops to zero!!
Our event went well all of you should of been there. I had a long ass set because I had no relief till later on Lady Drakcu came to my resue but it was really good. Lots of goths came out of their caves to grace us with their presence. Here is the set list that I and some of my cohorts spun in the Redemption room for the night of Wednesday, January 14th which was Redemption's 1st year anniversary! So that you can get the idea of the music that gets played at our event. 01/14/04 -Setlist DJ Dead The Cure - Just Like Heaven Love and Rockets - I'm Alive Peter Murphey - Cuts You Up Duran Duran - Come Undone Siouxsie and the Banshees - Spellbound Sisters of Mercy - Dominion Sunshine Blind - h4y (Request) Aeturnus - Fyrndeheimen Wumpscut - Wreath of Barbs (Request) Pig - Blades Skinny Puppy - Smothered Hope Switchblade Symphony - Naked Birthday Thrill Kill Kult - Days of Swine and Roses Die Form - Cantique Dead Can Dance - The Ubiquitous Mr. Love Groove The Cure - Lullaby Coffin Queens - Risen Deita Klaus - Rose Peter Murphey - All Night Long Sisters of Mercy - Marian (Version) Revolting Cocks - Do you Think I'm Sexy Love and Rockets - No Big Deal Wolfsheim - Sparrows and Nightengales (Request) Einsturzende Neubauten - Sand Velvet Acid Christ - Pretty Toy Skinny Puppy - Tin Omen Apoptygma Berzerk - Love is Forever Oghr - Water Soft Cell - Sex Dwarf Siouxsie and The Banshees - Face to Face Die Form - Sonic Temple Wumpscut - Deliverance Switchblade Symphony - Witches Siouxsie and the Banshees - Night Shift Sisters of Mercy - Lucretia My Reflection Lady Drakcu (Who is emailing me her set it's about a 20 min set) DJ Nikfiend Das Ich - Got Ist Tot (Remix) Skinny Puppy - Warlock (DJ Dead's Request) Skinny Puppy - Smothered Hope Ministry - Everyday is Halloween Sisters of Mercy - Nine While Nine Wumpscut - Angel (Remix) DJ Dead Penis Fly Trap - Cemetery Girl Penis Fly Trap - Tears of Blood Current Mood:  busyCurrent Music: Secsean Z - Ass Fucked! |
| Monday, January 12th, 2004 |
| 12:14 pm |
I know your poison yet I still lay my lips on you.
Wednesday January 14th Redemption and Replicant Colony 2 clubs, 2 rooms, 1 venue at Bar Absinthe 500 Anacapa St. Santa Barbara CA In the main room Replicant Colony with Thee Karkajou Automaton and Lady Drakcu spinning (Synth-pop/80's/EBM) and in the Lounge Redemption with DJ Dead M spinning (Goth/Industrial/Death Rock/Horror) $5 at the door 21 and over with valid ID Outdoor smoking patio Full Bar to bless all your alcoholic desires So be there redeem and repent your benevolent ways revel in our debauchery! http://redemption.batcave.net/ Current Mood: bouncyCurrent Music: Wumpscut-Christ Fuck |
| Thursday, January 8th, 2004 |
| 2:50 pm |
There's a knife on my back for everyday that I've known you!
I came home this morning ended up falling asleep on the couch. So I went to my bed room then I couldn't sleep isn't that justice. I have the weekend off it's been so long I don't know what to do. I might actually go outside. ahh My mind is clutter right now and I don't have the patients for LJ today. This is all I have to say! Current Mood:  anxiousCurrent Music: Einzturzende Neubauten-ZNS |
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